This is my life...

I'm not a theology major.  I don't believe in guilt-driven emotions therefore, I can't believe in sin.  I believe that it doesn't matter what name I call when I say my prayers.  I still receive the blessing of life. 
I believe, in goodness & love and I live my life accordingly. I'm not concerned about life beyond this one.  I am here.  I didn't ask to be here but I can get good at living and being a good human being.

Saturday Night Mr. George Waldrop

Regina Spektor – Laughing With

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God
When they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one laughs at God
When the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one's laughing at God
When it's gotten real late
And their kid's not back from the party yet

No one laughs at God
When their airplane start to uncontrollably shake
No one's laughing at God
When they see the one they love, hand in hand with someone else
And they hope that they're mistaken

No one laughs at God
When the cops knock on their door
And they say we got some bad news, sir
No one's laughing at God
When there's a famine or fire or flood

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party when listening to a good God-themed joke, or
Or when the crazies say He hates us
And they get so red in the head you think they're 'bout to choke
God can be funny,
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one's laughing at God
When they've lost all they've got
And they don't know what for

No one laughs at God on the day they realize
That the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one's laughing at God when they're saying their goodbyes

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party when listening to a good God-themed joke, or
Or when the crazies say He hates us
And they get so red in the head you think they're 'bout to choke
God can be funny,
When told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one laughing at God in hospital
No one's laughing at God in a war
No one's laughing at God when they're starving or freezing or so very poor

No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
No one's laughing at God
We're all laughing with God

The Flower Garden of My Mind (Ideas Come Hither)

the language of my voice blossoms with each season
my flower blooms each day until the cold of winter
then winter is blue to a freeze, I live inside of my home
then I long to feel a flowering feeling not like home

do they know what this place is for?
all those places have friends & lovers
affection is the reflection, subtle moments,
a feeling of togetherness, a oneness

I am with you while you look at your phone
we are out here on the patio, with other human beings
to feel less alone, to a feeling that's not like home
I'm not empty inside on this life-ride, merry-go-round

 (circus music)

it's the theme of my subtle smile, day dream
simply awakened to this collective scheme
this world takes all kinds: lazy, crazy, egotistical & lonely
I'm only alive, talking my time, biding a rhyme

a frost on a gourd, fall comes with the dawn
decay, bright features, ready to wither and die
from a pumpkin on the vine to pumpkin pie
imagine a death alone, it's the said feeling of home

join us, give of yourself to live, know well enough to grow
leave, grieve, believe, the light was worth the mundane candle
you know feelings, they come and stay, linger then pass & go away
new thoughts are good at arriving at the right time here in my day

my mind rolls and flows like a train or river, ideas come hither
my head is less like a ghost town since I watched for the winds of the river
a newfound feeling of love, I have saved some time for the dream
dreaming the real, these waking moments into hours, empowers my constitution

The Flower Garden of My Mind (Ideas Come Hither) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Scarlet Town "All Human Forms Seem Glorified"

1. Mary Gauthier- Merry Go Round
2. Blaze Foley- You'll Get Yours Aplenty
3. Bob Dylan- Scarlet Town
4. Lou Reed-  Dirty Blvd.
5. Leonard Cohen- The Future
6. Simon Joyner- Fool's Gold on Main St.
7. The Be Good Tanyas- Song for R.
8. Randy Newman- God's Song (That's Why I Love Mankind)
9. Dave Van Ronk- Zen Koans Gonna Rise Again
10. Lou Reed- Street Hassle
11. Nick Drake- Black-Eyed Dog
12. Janis Ian-  Insanity Comes Quietly To The Structured Mind
13. Mose Allison- What Do You Do After You Ruin Your Life
14. Chuck E. Weiss- It Rains On Me
15. Gillian Welch- Scarlet Town
16. Greg Brown- Living in a Prayer
17. Nina Simone- Just Like Tom Thumb's Blues

Scarlet Town "All Human Forms Seem Glorified" by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Come Back To Us John Lennon (Oct. 9 1940)

1. Hurray for the Riff Raff- Ode to John and Yoko
2. John Lennon- Serve Yourself (Home Tapes)
3. Funkadelic- Everybody Is Going to Make It This Time
4. National Lampoon- Positively Wall Street
5. George Clinton-  Mind Games
6. Stephan Smith- All Together Now
7. Stephen Stills- In My Life
8. Daniel Johnston- Got To Get You Into My Life
9. The Vines- I'm Only Sleeping
10. Keb' Mo'- Imagine
11. George Harrison- All Things Must Pass
12. The Beatles- In My Life
13. Eric Bibb- The Times They Are a Changin'
14. Flux Fiddlers- Instant Karma! (We All Shine On)
15. Brian Joens- Jennifer Johnson and Me
16. Nick Drake- Rider On The Wheel
17. John Lennon- Look At Me
18. Bob Dylan- Roll On John

Come Back To Us John Lennon (Oct. 9 1940) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Art of Goodness

1. Terri Hendrix- Prayer For My Friends
2. Three Legged Fox- I Am (That I Am)
3. HAIR Original Broadway Cast Album- Easy To Be Hard
4. Rick Danko- People Of Conscience
5. Eric Bibb- Get Onboard
6. Solomon Burke- Like A Fire
7. Tracy Chapman- All That You Have Is Your Soul
8. Greg Brown- Waiting on You
9. Donna The Buffalo- In Another World
10. Old Crow Medicine Show- Ain't It Enough
11. J.B. Lenoir- God's  Word
12. Parliament- Oh Lord, Why Lord/Prayer
13. Joan Baez- God Is God
14. Iris Dement- Let The Mystery Be
15. Bob Neuwirth- Save Me Jesus
16. Lucinda Williams- Blessed (The Kitchen Tapes)
17. Regina Spektor- Laughing With
18. John Lennon- God
19. George Waldrop- Serendipity of Mental Illness(Loneliness Has Taught Me)
20. George Harrison- All Things Must Pass

Serendipity of Mental Illness (Loneliness Has Taught Me)

nothing is so healing as the human touch
even the strongest men are always alone
the emptiness is all in your mind
the space between succession of sensation
I'm not so naive in my thoughts of self destruction
conscious of my existence has touched my soul
I'm surprised to find all that is beautiful in my mind
expression is the meaning of art
refreshing my hope with this art of the mix
I have a disease, incorrectly functioning, without peace of mind
my soul needs the touch, squeezed until it shines
out shine the rain, break free and not easy to be broken
every little soul must shine along, along, soul-shine along
caress in a kiss all the loving that you miss
suffering and in need, my heart does bleed
it's the darkest before the dawn
taint long fo' daylight
yes,the light of day, features of colors, the light in her eyes
I find hope in the serendipity of my mental illness
the way god made me and all the blessings the maker intended
I can't blame or put fault in the great creator, originator of all of this
all of this life, makes me take it slow, I have to wonder why?
all these challenges
I won't regret all that life has taught me
all that loneliness has taught me
about what is sadness
about what is beautiful
I lived through all the tears
loneliness and pain
I stayed and faced it
with all the fear and pride in my heart
I am destined to fail
*All Things Must Pass Away*
each day I try and try again
I just don't want to make the same mistakes
misunderstand and have to do this all over again
my love has been revealed
I don't pretend not to know
what I'm supposed to be
Oh, have mercy on the lonely
be compassionate when you read my heavy heart
my poetry, my poetry
is all I got...

Art of Goodness by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Serendipity of Mental Illness (Loneliness Has Taught Me)

nothing is so healing as the human touch
even the strongest men are always alone
the emptiness is all in your mind
the space between succession of sensation
I'm not so naive in my thoughts of self destruction
conscious of my existence has touched my soul
I'm surprised to find all that is beautiful in my mind
expression is the meaning of art
refreshing my hope with this art of the mix
I have a disease, incorrectly functioning, without peace of mind
my soul needs the touch, squeezed until it shines
out shine the rain, break free and not easy to be broken
every little soul must shine along, along, soul-shine along
caress in a kiss all the loving that you miss
suffering and in need, my heart does bleed
it's the darkest before the dawn
taint long fo' daylight
yes,the light of day, features of colors, the light in her eyes
I find hope in the serendipity of my mental illness
the way god made me and all the blessings the maker intended
I can't blame or put fault in the great creator, originator of all of this
all of this life, makes me take it slow, I have to wonder why?
all these challenges
I won't regret all that life has taught me
all that loneliness has taught me
about what is sadness
about what is beautiful
I lived through all the tears
loneliness and pain
I stayed and faced it
with all the fear and pride in my heart
I am destined to fail
*All Things Must Pass Away*
each day I try and try again
I just don't want to make the same mistakes
misunderstand and have to do this all over again
my love has been revealed
I don't pretend not to know
what I'm supposed to be
Oh, have mercy on the lonely
be compassionate when you read my heavy heart
my poetry, my poetry
is all I got...

Serendipity of Mental Illness (Loneliness Has Taught Me) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Bobbie Gentry- Ode To Billie Joe

1. Bobbie Gentry- Mississippi Delta
2. Bobbie Gentry- I Saw An Angel Die
3. Bobbie Gentry- Chickasaw County Child
4. Bobbie Gentry- Sunday Best
5. Bobbie Gentry- Niki Hokey
6. Bobbie Gentry- Papa, Woncha Let Me Go To Town With You
7. Bobbie Gentry- Bugs
8. Bobbie Gentry- Hurry, Tuesday Child
9. Bobbie Gentry- Lazy Willie
10. Bobbie Gentry-Ode To Billie Joe

Bobbie Gentry- Ode To Billie Joe by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Lackluster For Pretension(for Luke)

1. Bob Dylan- Chimes Of Freedom
2. Donovan- To Sing For You
3. Ben Weaver- Rain Leaves Smoke
4. Gillian Welch- Waysid / Back In Time
5. Greg Brown- Your Town Now
6. The Be Good Tanyas- Rowdy Blues
7. Roy Pilgrim- Boots of Spanish Leather
8. Hurray for the Riff Raff- Ramblin' Gal
9. Scud Mountain Boys- Grudge
10. Rhubarb Whiskey- We All Come To The Same Place
11. Kris Kristofferson- From The Bottle To The Bottom
12. Adrienne Young- Soldier's Joy
13. One Beer Prophet- Bound for Glory - or Hobohemia/Big Rock Candy Mountain
14. Tom Waits- Cold Water
15. Richard Thompson- Down Where The Drunkards Roll
16. The Tossers- Drinking In The Day
17. Jerry Garcia / David Grisman- Off to Sea Once More
18. The Pogues- I'm a Man You Don't Meet Every Day
19. George Waldrop- In The Sharing of My Life
20. Me Muses(George Waldrop)- Mesquito Rain

Lackluster For Pretension(for Luke) by Texhobart on Mixcloud