Serendipity of Mental Illness (Loneliness Has Taught Me)

nothing is so healing as the human touch
even the strongest men are always alone
the emptiness is all in your mind
the space between succession of sensation
I'm not so naive in my thoughts of self destruction
conscious of my existence has touched my soul
I'm surprised to find all that is beautiful in my mind
expression is the meaning of art
refreshing my hope with this art of the mix
I have a disease, incorrectly functioning, without peace of mind
my soul needs the touch, squeezed until it shines
out shine the rain, break free and not easy to be broken
every little soul must shine along, along, soul-shine along
caress in a kiss all the loving that you miss
suffering and in need, my heart does bleed
it's the darkest before the dawn
taint long fo' daylight
yes,the light of day, features of colors, the light in her eyes
I find hope in the serendipity of my mental illness
the way god made me and all the blessings the maker intended
I can't blame or put fault in the great creator, originator of all of this
all of this life, makes me take it slow, I have to wonder why?
all these challenges
I won't regret all that life has taught me
all that loneliness has taught me
about what is sadness
about what is beautiful
I lived through all the tears
loneliness and pain
I stayed and faced it
with all the fear and pride in my heart
I am destined to fail
*All Things Must Pass Away*
each day I try and try again
I just don't want to make the same mistakes
misunderstand and have to do this all over again
my love has been revealed
I don't pretend not to know
what I'm supposed to be
Oh, have mercy on the lonely
be compassionate when you read my heavy heart
my poetry, my poetry
is all I got...

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Bobbie Gentry- Ode To Billie Joe

1. Bobbie Gentry- Mississippi Delta
2. Bobbie Gentry- I Saw An Angel Die
3. Bobbie Gentry- Chickasaw County Child
4. Bobbie Gentry- Sunday Best
5. Bobbie Gentry- Niki Hokey
6. Bobbie Gentry- Papa, Woncha Let Me Go To Town With You
7. Bobbie Gentry- Bugs
8. Bobbie Gentry- Hurry, Tuesday Child
9. Bobbie Gentry- Lazy Willie
10. Bobbie Gentry-Ode To Billie Joe

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Lackluster For Pretension(for Luke)

1. Bob Dylan- Chimes Of Freedom
2. Donovan- To Sing For You
3. Ben Weaver- Rain Leaves Smoke
4. Gillian Welch- Waysid / Back In Time
5. Greg Brown- Your Town Now
6. The Be Good Tanyas- Rowdy Blues
7. Roy Pilgrim- Boots of Spanish Leather
8. Hurray for the Riff Raff- Ramblin' Gal
9. Scud Mountain Boys- Grudge
10. Rhubarb Whiskey- We All Come To The Same Place
11. Kris Kristofferson- From The Bottle To The Bottom
12. Adrienne Young- Soldier's Joy
13. One Beer Prophet- Bound for Glory - or Hobohemia/Big Rock Candy Mountain
14. Tom Waits- Cold Water
15. Richard Thompson- Down Where The Drunkards Roll
16. The Tossers- Drinking In The Day
17. Jerry Garcia / David Grisman- Off to Sea Once More
18. The Pogues- I'm a Man You Don't Meet Every Day
19. George Waldrop- In The Sharing of My Life
20. Me Muses(George Waldrop)- Mesquito Rain

Lackluster For Pretension(for Luke) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

In Real Time

1. Jerry Rubin- Address to the Yippie Convention
2. Bright Eyes- When the President Talks to God
3. John Lennon- Gimme Some Truth
4. Iris DeMent- Wasteland of the Free
5. Tracy Chapman- Talkin' Bout A Revolution
6. Pat Pepin- Living At Walmart
7. Ray Stevens-  Mr. Business Man (with Bush outro)
8. Mavis Staples- Have a Little Faith
9. Randy Newman- Short People
10. Mary Gauthier- Christmas In Paradise
11. Bob Dylan- Ballad of Hollis Brown
12. Todd Snider- Doublewide Blues
13. Buffalo Springfield- For What It's Worth
14. Negativland- Our National Anthem
15. Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young- Ohio
16. Van Morrison- Slim Slow Slider
17. Barry Mcguire- Eve Of Destruction
18. Gil Scott-Heron- Whitey On The Moon
19. The Beatles- Eleanor Rigby
20. Solomon Burke- None Of Us Are Free
21. Leonard Cohen- Suzanne
22. Utah Phillips- Stupid's Song (I Have Led A Good Life)

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Cisco Houston Sings American Folk Songs

1. Rambling, Gambling Man
2. Pat Works on the Railroad
3. Drill, Ye Tarriers, Drill
4. The Killers
5. The Zebra Dun
6. Old Riley
7. Blowing Down that Old Dusty Road
8. St. James Infirmary
9. Old Howard 
10. John Hardy
11. Boll Weevil
12. The Midnight Special
13. Great July Jones

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Let Me Die In My Footsteps

1. Bob Dylan- Let Me Die In My Footsteps
2. Bob Dylan- San Francisco Bay Blues
3. Bob Dylan- Jesus Met The Woman At The Well
4. Bob Dylan- Gypsy Davy
5. Bob Dylan- Pastures of Plenty
6. Bob Dylan- Remember Me
7. Bob Dylan- Folsom Prison Blues
8. Bob Dylan- Ring of Fire
9. Bob Dylan- Number One
10. Bob Dylan- Walkin' Down The Line
11. Bob Dylan- Train A-Travelin'
12. Bob Dylan- World War No. Three
13. Bob Dylan-  I'd Hate To Be You On That Dreadful Day
14. Bob Dylan- Denise Denise

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Lackluster For Pretension(for Luke)

1. Bob Dylan- Chimes Of Freedom
2. Donovan- To Sing For You
3. Ben Weaver- Rain Leaves Smoke
4. Gillian Welch- Waysid / Back In Time
5. Greg Brown- Your Town Now
6. The Be Good Tanyas- Rowdy Blues
7. Roy Pilgrim- Boots of Spanish Leather
8. Hurray for the Riff Raff- Ramblin' Gal
9. Scud Mountain Boys- Grudge
10. Rhubarb Whiskey- We All Come To The Same Place
11. Kris Kristofferson- From The Bottle To The Bottom
12. Adrienne Young- Soldier's Joy
13. Derroll Adams- 24 Hours A Day
14. Tom Waits- Cold Water
15. Richard Thompson- Down Where The Drunkards Roll
16. The Tossers- Drinking In The Day
17. Jerry Garcia / David Grisman- Off to Sea Once More
18. The Pogues- I'm a Man You Don't Meet Every Day
19. George Waldrop- In The Sharing of My Life
20. Me Muses(George Waldrop)- Mesquito Rain

Lackluster For Pretension by Texhobart on Mixcloud

In The Sharing of My Life

the truth is personal
we learn from our experience
the things in life we see
the things in knowledge
that divide our time
the places we go
the spaces we take
how we give & what we make
listening to conversation
the cards of talk we play
of what we want to get across
of what we hear ourselves say
to comprehend, to convey
life is about what we appreciate
in others, others are there
to connect, to reflect
friends, people & loved ones
all make this life
a life of value
a life of introspection
like a reflection of our collection
of communication, information
we are made for each other
compassion is all that is real
in this reality called life
ours, think about that
it's yours & it's mine
our space, our time
the art of talk
the art of listen
thirst to converse
walking abreast
thinking, feeling
zest
the sparkle in my mind
the tone of your voice
in my HEAD

George Waldrop- In The Sharing of My Life by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Positively England Street

1. Donovan- People Used To
2. Paul Simon- A Simple Desultory Philippic (Or How I Was Robert McNamara'd Into Submission)
3. Greg Brown- Freak Flag
4. Joan Baez- Rexroth's Daughter
5. Greg Brown- Summer Evening
6. Gillian Welch- In Tall Buildings
7. The Be Good Tanyas- The Littlest Birds
8. Jim White- Turquoise House
9. Kimya Dawson- Being Cool
10. Moondog- I'm This I'm That
11. I'll Take You There- The Bastard Song
12. Donovan- Happiness Runs
13. Jim White-  Keep It Meaningful You All
14. Steve Earle- God Is God
15. Caroline Herring- Lay My Burden Down
16. Martha Scanlan- Ten Thousand Charms
17. Bob Dylan- Sign On The Window
18. Adrienne Young- Plow to the End of the Row
19. Bob Neuwirth- Everybody's Got A Job To Do
20. Donovan- New Year's Resovolution

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Amy Speace- Make Me Lonely Again

I sit by my window and stare at the moon
I've held all your letters till my fingers were blue
I recall every moment like I'm pressing rewind
I got what I asked for now I'm losing my mind

Even when I was younger I liked being alone
Felt awkward at parties didn't go to the prom
While the whole world was dancing and falling in love
I stayed home in my slippers watching 'Harold and Maude'

I feel like I'm dying
'Cause I'm always crying
If this is what love is
Make me lonely again
I didn't date much, didn't understand why
When girlfriends had crushes how they'd giggle and sigh
Love made them seem stupid, dizzy and lost
I bragged love would never tie my stomach in knots

Chorus
But when I met you dear, my pride took a dive
I loved you in the instant you looked into my eyes
Now my whole world is spinning and I'm not sleeping so well
If love's really the answer why does it put us through hell?

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