People of Recovery

the regaining of something lost
the finding of something taken away
don't underestimate my abilities
for it's my ability that holds true to my recovery
I found this art in my heart of hearts
a friend in need, you will be freed, open to be with me
alone together our time conjointly with one another
I hope we can learn to see this recovery for what it is
how it's really real when we work together
I know how awesome a friendship can be
I know how goodness brings on security
a comfortable contented confidence
I am opening the door to our soundness
wholeness for the wise of heart
the meaning of desire, yearning to be healthy
we need to see and feel this meaningful union
I must be mindful, the time is now for this truth
I believe in togetherness, I must be mindful
I sure can't live on dreams and fantasy
for it's living in fantasy that leads to suffering
and those dreams are only in your head
until we come together to celebrate one another
what will people think when we collectively
show sound therapeutic practice for each other
there is a place for us all in the community
the mental ill with our addictive personalities
the addicts with our displacement of feelings
our troubles, our art and our integrity
everyone can learn from the people of recovery

New Rain As Apposed To Old Rain

1. The Things You Leave Behind
   Amy Rigby

2. Heavy Pieces
   Larry Garner

3. Quiet Me
   Terri Hendrix

4. Shadows on the Ground
   Kieran Kane

5. All I Have Is Today
   Robert Earl Keen

6. He Never Got Enough Love
   Lucinda Williams

7. Quietly
   Fred Eaglesmith

8. Angel From Montgomery
   Bonnie Raitt

9. I Didn't Mean To
   Guthrie Kennard

10. Desperado
    Eagles

11. Blackbird
    Josh White, Jr.

12. Ladder Song
    Bright Eyes

13. Just A Pilgrim
    Jim Byrnes

14. Mr. Guilt
    Cary Swinney

15. Build Your Own Prison
    The Boxmasters

16. The Other Side Of The Coin
    Solomon Burke

17. Gossip
    Blue Rodeo

18. House Where Nobody Lives
    King Ernest

19. Shadow Of The Master
    Billy Goodman

20. Out Of The Wilderness
    Colin Linden

     

     

    New Rain As Apposed To Old Rain by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

Hand Over My Heart ( for Denise )

1. Killing America's Soul
   Wiggins Sisters

2. I Want My Country Back
   Greg Brown

3. Turn It Around
   Bob Neuwirth

4. Christmas in Washington
   Steve Earle

5. Maiden Voyage
   Caroline Herring

6. What Did you learn in school Today
   Tom Paxton

7. Conservative Christian, Right-Wing Republican, Straight, White, American Males
   Todd Snider

8. For What It's Worth
   The Staple Singers

9. Wrote A Song For Everyone
   Creedence Clearwater Revival

10. Wasteland Of The Free
    Iris DeMent

11. It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding)
    The Duhks

12. Mercy Now
    Mary Gauthier

13. What The World Needs Now
    Daniel Johnston & Jad Fair

14. Long Shadow
    Joe Strummer

15. Age Of Treason
    Donovan

16. Tombstone Blues (movie clip)
    Richie Havens

17. Tombstone Blues
    Bob Dylan

18. Life Will Pass You By
    Kaleidoscope

19. San Francisco
    Ted Hawkins

20. Who stole the soul
    William Elliott Whitmore

     

     

     

    Hand Over My Heart ( for Denise ) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

s.e. smith, I Hide My Mental Illness

Like a lot of people with mental illness, I spend a lot of time fronting. It’s really important to me to not appear crazy, to fit in, to seem normal, to do the things “normal people” do, to blend in. It’s a form of assimilation for safety, but something deeper than that, where hiding my own identity for survival is also tearing me apart…
As a defense mechanism, fronting makes a lot of sense, and you hone that mechanism after years of being crazy. Fronting is what allows you to hold down a job and maintain relationships with people, it’s the thing that sometimes keeps you from falling apart. It’s the thing that allows you to have a burst of tears in the shower or behind the front seat of your car and then coolly collect yourself and stroll into a social engagement…
We are rewarded for hiding ourselves. We become the poster children for “productive” mentally ill people, because we are so organized and together. The fact that we can function, at great cost to ourselves, is used to beat up the people who cannot function.

Because unlike the people who cannot front, or who fronted too hard and fell off the cliff, we are able to “keep it together,” whatever it takes.

—s.e. smith, I Hide My Mental Illness

As The Poet Prays

it's these waves of endless crashing
on the shores of the devotion
between light and dark to the belief
confined in the symmetry divine
an idyll of pictures like haikus to time
the phase of haze to look yonder hill
mirrored thoughts confronted still
the dim imagery of the dream
how the morning sunlight caresses
the inward self of the passing pastoral scene
beauty calls in endless words without meaning
every behavior is circumstance of communication
the alone forever free of something to be
the stars burn against the wintered blue of projection
the reality of recovery, night sky and me
in the darkness maybe the object of the light
a poet of to and of, shine in the mind of free
plain to taste, bland and a hunger, plain to see
oh, how I worked the land, reaping the right
oh, how I got behind the plow, sowing in the night
to dirt of the earth, to grow in the garden
the solid soil fertile and full of weeds, on sunlight
forsaken crops feed, I beg your pardon
prayer for rain, prayer for food, discerning myself for insight
asking god in the careful talk of the night

Rope-a-dope Dookies All Around the Neck

Shake Your Rump

By: Beastie Boys

Now, I rock a houExplainse party at the drop of a hat
I beat a biter down with an aluminum bat
A lot of people they be Jonesin' just to hear me rock the mic
They'll be staring at the radio, staying up all night
So like a pimp, I'm pimpin'
I got a boat to eat shrimp in
Nothing wrong with my leg, I'm just B-boy limpin'
Got arrested at the Mardi Gras for jumping on a float
My man MCA's got a beard like a billy goat
Ooh-ooh is my disco call
MCA (hu-huh)
I'm gettin' rope, y'all

Routines I bust, and the rhymes that I write
And I'll be busting routines and rhymes all night
Like eating burgers or chicken and you'll be picking your nose, man
I'm on time, homie, that's how it goes
You heard my style, I think you missed the point

It's the joint

Mike D... (Yeah?) With your bad self running things
What's up with your bad breath onion rings
Well, I'm Mike D, and I'm back from the dead
Chillin' at the beach, down at Club Med
Make another record cause the people they want more of this
Suckers they be saying they can take out Adam Horovitz
Hurricane, you got clout
Other DJ's, he'll put your head out
A puppet on a string, I'm paid to sing or rhyme or do my thing
I'm in a lava lamp, inside my brain hotel
I might be freakin or peakin', but I rock well
The Patty Duke, the Wrench, and then I bust the Tango
Got more rhymes than Jamaica got Mango
I got the peg leg at the end of my stump-a

Shake your rump-a

A full clout, y'all, a full clout, y'all
And when the mic is in my mouth, I turn it out, y'all
A full clout

*sound of a bong hit followed by a shotgun noise*

Never been dumped, cause I'm the most mackinest
Never been jumped, cause I'm known the most packinest
Yeah, we've got beef, chief, we're knocking out teeth, chief
And if you don't believe us, you should question your belief, Keith
Like Sam the butcher bringing Alice the meat
Like Fred Flintstone, driving around with bald feet
Should I have another sip? Nah, skip it
In the back of the ride and bust with the whippet
Rope a dope dookies all around the neck
Who-ha, got them all in check
Running from the law, the press, and the parents
Is your name Michael Diamond?
No, mine's Clarence
From downtown, Manhattan, the Village
My style is wild, and you know that it still is
Disco bag schlepping, and you're doing the bump

Shake your rump-a

1. So What'Cha Want
   Beastie Boys

2. Nonstop Disco Powerpack
   Beastie Boys

3. Jimmy James
   Beastie Boys

4. Flute Loop
   Beastie Boys

5. Finger Lickin' Good (Government Cheese Remix)
   Beastie Boys

6. Something's got to give
   Beastie Boys

7. What Comes Around
   Beastie Boys

8. Lighten Up
   Beastie Boys

9. Gratitude (Live At Budokan)
   Beastie Boys

10. Hey Ladies
    Beastie Boys

11. Slow and Low
    Beastie Boys

12. Get It Together
    Beastie Boys

13. Skills To Pay The Bills
    Beastie Boys

14. Long Burn the Fire
    Beastie Boys

15. Shake Your Rump
    Beastie Boys

16. Dope Little Song
    Beastie Boys

17. Egg Man
    Beastie Boys

18. Sure Shot
    Beastie Boys

19. Slow Ride
    Beastie Boys

20. Shadrach
    Beastie Boys

21. She's On It
    Beastie Boys

22. B-Boy Bouillabaisse: A Year And A Day
    Beastie Boys

23. Pass The Mic (Mike Nardone Remix)
    Beastie Boys

     

     

    Rope-a-dope Dookies All Around the Neck by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

     

     

Emotional Souvenirs Made of Pastoral Pictures

Sunshine

by: Sparklehorse


I opened my eyes
And watched the sunshine
It had been out all night
To relax and unwind

There will come a time gigantic
Waves will crush the junk that I have saved
When the moon explodes or floats away
I'll lose the souvenirs I made
La la la

I lay down on the grass
And let the insects do their thing
She covered me with wings and
Held my head and said ‘poor thing’

There will come a time gigantic
Waves will crush the junk that I have saved
When the moon explodes or floats away
I'll lose the souvenirs I made
La la la




If you're a person who has difficulty with change, this will hit a soft spot, because it reminds you that life continues on and you can't possibly
keep all of your past memories of pain and love and joy that are precious to you and you've collected over your life. Life and the things in
life that come to pass at times are heavy or a lot comes to you at once, and one day, you look up and realize things have changed because
you're trying to hard to hold on to past things that you don't realize what has come to pass already. …Then you slow down at a point and
realize you forgot about precious memories or hurtful things that you wanted to hold on to in sense of the feelings they gave you, but now
and again, it will continue to happen. It is painful, even though they are mere feelings and thoughts, mental, emotional souvenirs.
If you're like me, you have certain spots, or areas you visit more than once when you have been hit by a memory or feeling and you want to
wind down, and this area/spot you continue to come back to, reminds you of so much. Depressing but sometime it's the only way to think
clearly or get peace when you need to sort out thoughts, situations.

1. Sunshine
   Sparklehorse

2. Quicksand
   David Bowie

3. I Wonder
   Bill Fay

4. Looking for a Sign
   Beck

5. State of Grace
   Beth Orton

6. That Wintered Blue Sky
   Jim White

7. Red Bandana Blues
   Simon Joyner

8. The Night They Drove Old Dixie Down
   Richie Havens

9. Silver>Blue
   Thurston Moore

10. One Of Us Cannot Be Wrong
    Drunk

11. American Haikus
    Jack Kerouac

12. A Picture From Life's Other Side
    Johnny Dowd

13. I Took a Memory to Lunch
    Jeb Loy Nichols

14. The World And All I Know
    Joe Henry

15. Little Rhymes
    Mercury Rev

16. Images of Me
    Amy Stroup

     

     

    Emotional Souvenirs Made of Pastoral Pictures by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

     

     

     

Hair of the Dog and the Menajahtwas

Happy Valentine's Day! I took your challenge Retrojoe. Hair of the Dog and the Menajahtwas would be my name for a band (if I Had a band) that just got together once a year for the Valentines Day gig. This was so much fun to make. I hope everyone will choose to join in on the celebration!

1. All I Wanna Do
   Sheryl Crow

2. Just Like Heaven
   The Cure

3. Sex and Candy
   Marcy Playground

4. Sad and Blue
   Melvern Taylor

5. Kiss
   Prince & The Revolution

6. Debra
   Beck

7. Freedom Of '76
   Ween

8. Grudge ****
   Scud Mountain Boys

9. Walk Of Shame
   Winechuggers

10. I Want You All
    Brigid Kaelin

11. I'm Sticking With You
    The Velvet Underground

12. Love Will See You Through
    Daniel Johnston

13. Anyone Else But You
    The Moldy Peaches

14. All I Want Is You
    Barry Louis Polisar

15. Perfect Day (acoustic demo)
    Lou Reed

16. Sunshine
    Sparklehorse

17. Tried And True
    Ween

18. Silver And Gold
    Joe Strummer

19. Moon River
    One Beer Prophet

20. Blister In The Sun
    Violent Femmes

     

     

     

     

     

    Hair of the Dog and the Menajahtwas by Texhobart on Mixcloud

San Francisco

I took the picture when I was in San Francisco in 2006. The photo is called Berkeley Bums. Take a trip with me.

1. San Francisco
   Ted Hawkins

2. Don't Look Now, Karen's Gone To The Moon
   Dawnwind

3. The Littlest Birds
   Jolie Holland

4. Be at Peace with Yourself
   Bill Fay

5. Rubin And Cherise
   Jerry Garcia Band

6. Clove Cigarette
   Stephen Ashbrook

7. Grudge
   Phillips & Driver

8. Walk Of Shame
   Winechuggers

9. Blue Spotted Tail
   Fleet Foxes

10. Leaving Again
    Steve Poltz

11. Busted Bottle
    Bob Neuwirth

12. The Light (Her Hands Were Leaves)
    Alexi Murdoch

13. Scarlet Flames
    Richie Havens

14. Psalms of War
    Ben Arthur

15. Simple+ideal
    Sean Hayes

16. I Remember Music
    Rocky Votolato

17. Riff Raff
    Mark Kozelek

18. Gossip In The Grain
    Ray LaMontagne

19. Absentminded Melody
    Joel Plaskett

20. Ain't Life a Brook
    Ferron

21. There But For The Grace of God Go I
    Pole Cat Creek

     

     

     

     

     

    San Francisco by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

One Truth Over Another

Love Thy Neighbor

By: George Waldrop

does it bother you that you don't know me?
I belong to no one, I am apart of everyone
my goal is to function and flow with the grace of all I know
I belong to no one, I am apart of everyone
one who is a servant, makes for the best leader
with people, I am apart, with people, in my heart
the daylight will find, you in the warm-hold of my mind
the nighttime will find, a peacefulness so kind
we all have this place in our world
everyone who is in this world belongs
with the oneness of our maker
with the oneness of our creator
father sun, mother earth, light this night, born of earth
a sound mind, vibration of rhythm
a heart, a soul, you to feel what I am giving,
to receive what I am giving
rest easy when you think of me next door
a peaceful mind to live your life
a peaceful mind to love your home
a peaceful mind to live your life
a neighbor that lives all alone
have mercy on the lonely
when you read my heavy heart
have mercy on the lonely
when you grow to understand my art
there is a friendship in my mind
there is a open heart of brotherly love
there is a friendship so kind
together we can live in our neighborhood
together we can share all that is good

1. Amazing Grace
   Joan Baez

2. Pulling Up The Stone
   Richie Havens

3. Please Forgive
   Simon Joyner

4. Anthem For Old Souls
   Chuck E. Weiss

5. Older Than My Old Man Now
   Loudon Wainwright III

6. Now That I'm My Grampa
   Greg Brown

7. A World That Passed Me By
   Chris Difford

8. The World Is Not My Home
   David Dondero

9. Deepens With Time
   Ron Sexsmith

10. The Sky ( Derroll Adams Cover )
    Allan Taylor

11. What The Soul Desires
    Donovan

12. Dignity
    Robyn Hitchcock

13. On The Nickel
    Tom Waits

14. 27 Forever
    The Sixth Great Lake

15. Forever Young
    Pete Seeger

16. The Other Side Of The Coin
    Solomon Burke

17. Redemption
    Johnny Cash

18. Joy Never Ends (Auld Long Syne)
    Caroline Herring

     

     

     

    One Truth Over Another by Texhobart on Mixcloud

     

Love Thy Neighbor

does it bother you that you don't know me?
I belong to no one, I am apart of everyone
my goal is to function and flow with the grace of all I know
I belong to no one, I am apart of everyone
one who is a servant, makes for the best leader
with people, I am apart, with people, in my heart
the daylight will find, you in the warm-hold of my mind
the nighttime will find, a peacefulness so kind
we all have this place in our world
everyone who is in this world belongs
with the oneness of our maker
with the oneness of our creator
father sun, mother earth, light this night, born of earth
a sound mind, vibration of rhythm
a heart, a soul, you to feel what I am giving,
to receive what I am giving
rest easy when you think of me next door
a peaceful mind to live your life
a peaceful mind to love your home
a peaceful mind to live your life
a neighbor that lives all alone
have mercy on the lonely
when you read my heavy heart
have mercy on the lonely
when you grow to understand my art
there is a friendship in my mind
there is a open heart of brotherly love
there is a friendship so kind
together we can live in our neighborhood
together we can share all that is good

Descending Feather ( Dead Weight )

Idyll Communication

By: George Waldrop

face to face with a reflection
lack of imparted thoughts of passion
to pass between communicated visions
poorness of wise spaces of thoughts
between thought and expression
the magic of understanding, to be understood
without it only a broken heart will remain
carrying the burdens, toting beliefs, fleshed out
sobriety, freedoms, identity, opportunities
in touch, to touch, with feelings, to feel

face to face with a reflection
others need to feel a connection
they fail to know goodness of intentions
it's inside slow without normal sensation
to feel, finest feel, of consciousness, of awareness
coming across to get the words on my mind, to find
therapeutic revelation, inward revolution
takes a kindness profound to know where I'm bound
sounds abound inside the colorful mindfulness
in touch, to touch, with feelings, to feel

face to face with a reflection
the time taken to understand the infliction
to turn to other means, a gift, rustic idealisation
I tell myself to believe that life is people
it's being apart of another person is a completion
in the heart, they dwell in the soul, grow to the fertile mind
a oneness of two is creative, love both of you, creation anew
it's one truth over another, forgiveness of brotherly love
eternal and forever, learn communicated sensitiveness of others
in touch, to touch, with feelings, to feel

1. Beautiful Blue
   Blue Rodeo

2. Song for June
   Slaid Cleaves

3. Bus To Baton Rouge
   Lucinda Williams

4. Tomorrow Never Comes
   Juliana Hatfield

5. Half Asleep & Wide Awake
   Amy Speace

6. Beyond the Blue
   Joan Armatrading

7. If Tomorrow Never Comes
   Todd Snider

8. Old Part Of Town
   Peter Case

9. Long Way Home
   Hayes Carll

10. Long Way Home
    Tom Waits

11. Beyond the Blues
    Michael Eck

12. Goodnight Moon
    Will Kimbrough

13. Waltzing's For Dreamers
    Richard Thompson

14. Moon on the Water
    Terri Hendrix

15. Please Stay
    Warren Zevon

16. The Dreadful Night
    Pinataland

17. 3 A.M.
    Susan Voelz

18. Winter
    Judas Feet

 

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